2011 Goals/Plans

I have never been one for making goals and when I do, I hardly ever never follow though with them. I guess I'm just not a very motivated person. Last January, Aaron and I had family goals, all of which were "put on hold" because of the events of my Grandfather. I wasn't going to set any this year because the #1 goal just never happens. So this year we have one goal...to get a house! And we are working really hard on it!

But as for me personally I have been thinking about what I want to do this year to better myself as a person, friend, daughter, sister and most importantly as a wife. The number one thing I want to work on this is to stop using the word "if". It is very much a negative word in my vocabulary and I need to remove the negative in my life. My other 'goal' is to find a support group for couples who are going though what we are going though. To get out of my 'slump' there are several things in my life that I need to change, such as moving, but also surrounding myself with people who understand what I am going though and won't judge me for it. Another thing I am working on, is looking at other peoples blogs and facebook status less.  I love blogging and facebook, but it very much adds to my depression.

As much as I hope that 2011 is going to be the year, I need to be realistic and at the same time stay positive. (Which is really hard but something else I need to work on)

Wendover Weekend

Since I will have to work weekends for awhile, we decided to take a short trip to Wendover just to "get-a-way" without having to go too far. Not too much to do there. But we had a king-size jacuzzi suite! The jacuzzi tub was huge!!!! For the most part we didn't even need to leave to casino/hotel.

I only got two pictures of the trip and they were of the drive there. Aaron wanted me to take a picture of the man made tree. (It is the only tree around for miles!!!!)

Our friends, the Cotner's, watched our little dogs for us. I think they had a lot of fun playing with their 2 dogs and their little boy Colton. Colton was so sad when Bella left he even climbed in the kennel with her! :)

Birthday Fun

Last night was just what I needed. We celebrated my birthday with my family. Mom made me Grampy's fries and Bryant and Elisha made this awesome, Marvin the Martian cake!!!!

They also brought 3 Wii games for us all to play. Micheal Jackson expirence, Just Dance 2 and Dance on Broadway! It was so much fun! Even Mom and Dad got into it!!! MJ was my favorite and the next game I have to get!!!!

In a slump!

Sorry guys, but this is a depressing post. Because I am depressed. So, if you don't want to get depressed, or if you will get offend STOP READING NOW! My life hasn't turned out the way I'd planed for, but I guess whose does, right!?! Usually, I love my birthday, but this year it was just a day to remind me I am another year older without what I really want. I am told over and over again that there is still time and that I am still young. But the older I get, the more I worry and the more depressed I become. And my living situation isn't helping me at all. We have no room, no privacy and someone who is trying to be our mother. I am normally a very positive person, however living with someone who is negative all the time, really gets to me and is adding very much to my depression. Yet when I talk about moving by the end of this summer I get grief from members of my family and I feel that it's because then they would have to help out more and they don't want to. In order for me to get out of this depression, I need to do what is best for me and not worry about what others think. How is getting our own home a bad thing?! We have put our life on hold and sacrificed a lot to move in here and take care of my Grandma. And I can't do it anymore! I'm sorry, but I just can't for my own sake. I want a good relationship with my Grandma, the way it use to be, but I can't have that living here. I didn't write this to offend anyone, but I did warn you. I don't want sympathy or advise, I just needed to vent and get my feelings out.

New Year and New Toy!!!

We had a very mellow New Years, since it was snowing so bad all day New Year's Eve, we decided to stay home and play Mario Kart!

Now my new toy! Aaron hates shopping for me and since my brithday is coming up, I told him I wanted a new computer and that I would go get it with him so he would be off the hook! I LOVE IT!!! It is an hp all in one, touch screen! I didn't realize how much I was missing out on in the blogging world! (And the internet world all together!)

Sorry about all the crap in the backround! I was also eating soup!!! :)

Merry Chirstmas

It's hard to believe another Christmas has come and gone! This year it didn't really feel like Christmas. I don't know if it was because our family had such a hard year, or if it's because I could decorate. We did go buy a little tree and once the presents started going under it, it didn't look so sad.

Christmas Eve, we went to a movie with the family, we saw Tangled, and we love it! It was the second time Aaron and I saw it, and we would go again and again! Then we went to mom's and did our Christmas Eve traditions. Then all the siblings headed over to Bryant and Elisha's to spend the night. But not much sleep happened. Again this year, the "in-laws" were first to fall asleep!

Christmas Morning, we went back to Mom and Dad's to open up our presents. We were able to spoil everyone this year and we had so much fun watching them open their gifts! 

We surprised Bryant and Elisha and got them a Wii! Bryant screamed like a girl, he was so excited and surprised!

Dad painted this for Aaron. It was a picture Aaron took on his mission in North Carolina, after a second hurricane in a row. We love it!!!

 Nanny sent us each a pair of these awesome Canadian mittens. They are so warm!!! And when you put them together, you make a full maple leaf!

I think for the first time ever, I am glad that Christmas is over. But I sure love spending time with my wonderful family!!!